Faking it well…
During many reflections of myself when I begin to think of what I could potentially picture my self doing in the ‘future,’ I thought about several conversations I’ve had related to this with my fellow peers during the course of the year. With all their incredible talents, it didn’t take long for me to figure out what I felt would be the “perfect” jobs for them; to the point where I thought maybe I’d have a career in guidance counseling for all the ‘help’ I was providing.
The irony behind this is that I would express my ideas as soon as I would think them and find that they had a totally different view of themselves. I found the math geniuses focusing on language enriched career paths. The politically savy considering pre-med instead of pre-law. Common sense eventually kicks in for me that I should be more concerned about how I’m going to make my contribution to the world but I can’t help feeling so confused and almost embarassed that I’m not as smart as them for thinking of such clear cut goals. Today though it clicked; no one has found their place yet. Not the future pro-ballers, the rocket scientists, or the everyday joes. Even when it looks like they fit into one niche all they’re doing is faking it well. I know this because no matter what age we are, even when we find our place in the career world, we will always have the opportunity to second guess ourselves. High school just seems to be the time when we’re most sensitive to this but it’s not. It’s really the first time, at least for me, that I recognize this truth and hope that when that second guessing feeling comes around I’ll plow past it with a little boost of confidence, knowing all I can do is try.
2 years ago • Notes